That's Life

 Sermon preached May 11, 2014, Confirmation Sunday

Texts: Acts 2:42-47; John 10:1-10

            Frank Sinatra, “That’s Life”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VzPOn9rYty8

            I thought I would begin by playing something that I was sure was on the ipods of all these fine young men being confirmed today.  Do you know who that is?  I guess we can be glad that Frank Sinatra never came up as a word in Catch Phrase or Telestrations.

            Beginning with a little bit of humor seemed appropriate.  This year’s confirmation class can be quiet, very quiet.  It might have something to do with adolescent boys and 8:45 am on Sunday mornings.  Though they can be quiet, they each have delightful senses of humor.  It found its way a bit into the confirmation bios, at least I am hoping Oscar’s goal in life is not really to live in his parent’s basement.

            That’s life – ups, downs, twists, turns, joys, sorrows, moments of clarity, moments of doubt and questions – that’s life.  What does faith have to do with life?  What does it mean to confirm one’s faith?  While these are questions especially for these five young men, they are questions for each of us.  What does faith have to do with life and what does it mean to confirm our faith?  My biggest criticism of the idea of “confirmation” is that we sometimes reduce it to a one-time event in life.  Confirmed my faith – check.  In reality, confirming our faith is something that should happen again and again.  The life of faith is a life-long adventure, and involves life-long learning.

            What does faith have to do with life?  One of my favorite passages of Scripture is the very last part of this morning’s Scripture reading.  Jesus is using images taken from the experience of shepherds to describe who he is for people of faith.  Here he compares himself to a sheep gate. Later he will compare himself to the shepherd.  Whatever the comparison, the key seems to me in the last part of verse 10.  I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.  I appreciate Eugene Peterson’s rendering in The Message: I came so that they have real and eternal life, more and better life than they ever dreamed of.  The Jesus way of life, the way of life of faith in Jesus is intended to be full, rich, abundant life, more and better life than we may have even dreamed of.

            Really?  Let’s take a peak at Acts 2 for a moment -  a picture of some folks trying to live the Jesus way of life.  They devoted themselves to the apostle’s teaching and fellowship, to the breaking of bread and the prayers.  Awe came upon everyone, because many wonders and signs were being done by the apostles.  All who believed were together and had all things in common; they would sell their possessions and goods and distribute the proceeds to all, as any had need.  Day by day, as they spent much time together in the temple, they broke bread at home and ate their food with glad and generous hearts, praising God and having the goodwill of all the people.

            Now many of us reading or hearing that may say to ourselves, “That sounds really pious to me, but not necessarily a description of grabbing hold of life, of shaking the tree of life to gather as much fruit as possible, to sucking the marrow out of life.”  But look again, not so much at the exact details, but at the overall themes.  These people are learning, praying, sharing, experiencing moments of awe, and developing glad and generous hearts.  Learning, praying, sharing, openness to awe, and developing glad and generous hearts – this seems like the makings of a way of life.  This is not a bad description of the Jesus way of life, and confirming our faith is saying “yes” to Jesus and this Jesus way of life.

            And by faith here, I mean trust.  The essence of faith is not belief, it is trust.  Do you believe that the earth was created in seven days is not really a faith question.  It is an empirical question, a scientific question to which the answer seems to be "no."“ Do you trust that however the earth came into being that God has an intention for creation, for human life, for your life?  That is a faith question because is it a question of trust and if we say “yes” it asks of us that we live differently.

            Reflecting on faith as trust, the theologian Dorothee Soelle wrote: You cannot life authentically without trusting that life is good, even your life, that the difficulties and setbacks are not the last word, not even for you, and that your life has a purpose (Not Just Yes and Amen, 54)  The religious writer Sam Keen also reflects in a similar vein.  The ultimate significance, meaning, security, value, dignity of my life is not dependent upon anything I can do, make or accomplish.  Therefore, my action may spring out of what I am rather that arising out of a desperate need to establish myself (quoted in Donald Evans, Struggle and Fulfillment, 25)

            Life will have its ups and downs, twists and turns, joys and sorrows, moments of clarity and moments of confusion, times of achievement, and times of disappointment.  That’s life.  Do we trust that life is good and that finally we are valued and have dignity no matter what?  These values and dignity are rooted in the love of God in Jesus Christ.  When we know this deep valuing of our lives we live a way of life characterized by learning, praying, sharing, openness to awe, and developing glad and generous hearts.  Do we trust that this is the way of life?

            This way of life is different from other ways that are supposed to give us abundant life.  In his delightful book about Christian faith, Unapologetic, Francis Spufford says that the world shaped by advertising suggests to us that “the center of gravity of the human race, our default condition, is to be young, buff and available” (9).  Of course, that’s true about this morning’s confirmation class, but it is not true for any of us all of our lives.  Sorry guys.  That’s life.  That narrow definition of the good life seems to boil life down to enjoyment, but that’s not really all of life.  Spufford writes: The rest of the time, you’ll be busy feeling hope, boredom, curiosity, anxiety, irritation, fear, joy, bewilderment, hate, tenderness, despair, relief, exhaustion, and the rest.  It makes no more sense to say that you should feel the single emotion of enjoyment about your life than to say that you should spend it entirely in a state of fear, or of hopping-from-foot-to-foot anticipation.  Life just isn’t unanimous like that. (8)  A way of life characterized by learning, praying, sharing, openness to awe, and developing glad and generous hearts seems to be truer to life.  Do we trust that?

            Two more brief reflections on faith and life before wrapping up.  Writer Doris Betts asserts that faith is ‘not synonymous with certainty… [but] is the decision to keep your eyes open” (in Kathleen Norris, Amazing Grace, 169).  When we trust that life is good, even with its darknesses and difficulties, even my life and your life, then we can be more open to the world.  We are not so fragile.  We can take it all in and in doing so are more open to awe.

            A Desert monk in the Christian tradition offers this reflection on faith.  “Faith is to live humbly and give alms” (Norris, 170).  That is a nice shorthand way of saying that when we trust in the love and goodness of God, we live lives characterized by learning, praying, sharing, openness to awe, and developing glad and generous hearts.  We trust that this Jesus way of life is really life – abundant life, more and better life.

            This is faith.  This is life.  Confirming our faith should happen again and again, but as we are encouraged to confirm our faith, let’s admit that this Jesus way is not always easy.  There are “spiritual forces of wickedness,” that is powerful influences that would have us narrow the scope of our lives.  Life is about more than success, getting spending – none of which are bad in themselves, but they are not the whole of life.  Enjoyment is not the whole of life, though there is nothing wrong with enjoyment.  Yet if we are not at times brought to tears by some of the tragedy in the world, are we really open to life?

            This way of faith is a way of courage – using the freedom and power God gives us to oppose evil, injustice and oppression in whatever forms they present themselves.  That is certainly not an easy task.

            The way of faith is a way of forgiveness, of admitting that sometimes we don’t live up to our faith and need forgiveness.  It is trusting that forgiveness is always there.

            Drew, Robbie, Jeremy, Oscar, Josh – you have gifts – music, athletics, acting, thoughtfulness, humor – develop them, use them for good.  Trust that doing that is the way of life, the way of Jesus.  Even more important, continue to develop your hearts, may they be glad and generous hearts.

            Always remember, you are not alone.  Today you say “yes” to God, and you say “yes” to the church.  We will continue to surround you with a community of love and forgiveness and we will walk this Jesus journey with you.  We will with you learn, pray, share, be open to awe, and work on developing glad and generous hearts

            Now that’s life.  Amen.

Bread

May 4, 2014

Texts: Luke 24:13-35

            Bread, “If” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nTsaixdX4f8  O.K. so this song just sounds like the 1970s.  This song evokes both warmth and terror.  It was the kind of song you dreamed of dancing to with that cute girl from your math class, and the kind of song that created sweaty palms as you stood there at the Ordean Junior High dance too terrified to actually go ask that girl to dance.  Worse yet, you may have finally screwed up the courage to ask, and she said “no,” then you had to make your way back across the cafeteria floor to the other side of the room feeling really awful.

            The name of the group was “Bread” – another echo of the 1970s.  This sermon is a companion to last week’s sermon and not just because it is also named after a band.  Last week I spoke about blind faith, how our Christian faith is not a blind faith in that it does not ask us to believe without questions or doubts.  Yet Christian faith is a sort of blind faith in that it asks of us trust – trust that the most important things in life cannot be seen, but are matters of the heart and soul; trust that the good we do is never lost, but that God  is one who acts  with “a tender care that nothing be lost” (Alfred North Whitehead, Process and Reality, 525 old edition). 

            I trust that the most important matters in life are often unseen.  I trust that with God, nothing good is lost.  At the same time that we affirm this, we also affirm the importance of the invisible becoming visible.  While what matters most in life is unseen, we trust that the unseen can, in fact, be seen sometimes.  We may not see kindness, but we see how kindness becomes visible in the world.  Justice is not something that we can take a picture of, but we know something of justice when historical wrongs are made right, when oppression is overcome, when people are set free.  We may not see love, but we see people in love and how they live with each other.

            If at the heart of Christian faith there is this trust in the importance of the unseen, there is also a trust that this important unseen stuff can and does become visible, we might say “incarnate.”  At the heart of Christian faith is God - unseen Spirit.  At the heart of Christian faith is Jesus – God made visible, “the side of God turned toward us, the face of God” in the words of Marcus Borg (Meeting Jesus Again For the First Time, p. 137).  In the Christian faith we celebrate “sacraments.”  Today we will share in communion.  The sacraments are “outward and visible signs of inward and spiritual grace.”  While we don’t call marriage a sacrament in The United Methodist Church, there is something sacramental about it.  When I hold up rings during a wedding, I say, “These rings are an outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace signifying to all the uniting of this couple in marriage.”

            We trust in the importance of the invisible.  We also trust that this important invisible stuff wants and needs to be made more visible.

            There is this story in the Gospel of Luke.  Two disciples of Jesus are walking toward a village, Emmaus.  While they are walking and talking about the event of Jesus’ arrest and death, Jesus himself joins them, though they did not recognize him.  The conversation is lively.  They arrive and urge the stranger to stay with them.  So he went in to stay with them.  When he was at the table with them, he took bread, blessed and broke it, and gave it to them.  Then their eyes were opened, and they recognized him; and he vanished from their sight.

            This Jesus, who appears and disappears mysteriously, wants to make himself visible.  He becomes visible in the breaking of bread.  When we share communion, we trust that Jesus can be real to us in an important way as we eat the bread and drink the juice.  Communion is an outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace.  When we baptize, we use ordinary water, but that water becomes a visible and tangible expression of God’s love, and of the love of God’s people for the one being baptized.

            God’s love in Jesus, may not be visible, yet it wants to become more visible in sacraments, in actions.  We trust the importance of that invisible love becoming visible, and we trust that all our efforts to make that love of God more visible in the world are worth it, and that with God, none of our good is lost.

            Another aspect to this is that in Jesus, God invites us to be sacramental people.  We are ones through whom God wants to love the world.  We may be the Jesus people see.  We are to be outward and visible signs of the inward grace and love of God.  The theologian Edward Schillebeeckx, in his book Church: the human story of God writes: Where good is furthered and evil is challenged in the human interest, then through this historical practice the being of God… is also established (12).  In other words, our actions in response to God’s call in Jesus Christ to be more loving, compassionate, to do justice and care for creation, are outward and visible signs of God’s presence in the world.  We help make God more real, in the words of Schillebeeckx, “in and through acts of love” (12)

            Father Frans van der Lugt, a Dutch priest, went to Syria in 1966 to minister to the people there.  He worked in the city of Homs.  In recent years, as Syria has deteriorated into a situation of civil war, Father Frans refused to leave his community.  Homs became part of rebel-held territory, blockaded by the Syrian government.  Earlier this year some 1,400 people were evacuated, but Father Frans stayed on, ministering to the area’s remaining Christians and helping poor families, particularly through the distribution of bread.  Father Frans told reporters, “I don’t see people as Muslims or Christians, I see a human being first and foremost.”  In early April, a gunman came to Father Frans’ house, took him outside and shot him twice in the head, killing him.

            Thankfully most sacramental acts don’t end in death.

            Sometimes loving can be dangerous.  Sometimes the work of justice is difficult and complicated.  Sometimes compassion is challenging.  Father Frans, in his ministry in Syria was a sacramental person, giving bread to the poor, reaching out to people regardless of whether or not they were Christian of Muslim.

            God’s love in Jesus, may not be visible, yet it wants to become more visible in sacraments, in actions.  We trust the importance of that invisible love becoming visible, and we trust that all our efforts to make that love of God more visible in the world are worth it, and that with God, none of our good is lost.  God invites us to be sacramental people.

            Take this bread, so you can be bread for the world, a sacrament of God’s grace and love in Jesus.  Take this cup, so you can refresh the world with the grace and love of God in Jesus.  Turn to your neighbor, and say, “the Christ in me greets the Christ in you.”  Amen.

Blind Faith

Sermon preached April 27, 2014

Texts: I Peter 1:3-9; John 20:19-31

            Here is your morning music quiz.  Name this super group that made only one album together: Blind Faith, “Can’t Find My Way Home”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IN1J5sMv28Q

            Blind Faith included Eric Clapton, Steve Winwood, Ginger Baker.  They made but one record together and it included this lovely song “Can’t Find My Way Home.”

            Blind faith – is that what faith is all about, blind faith?  Some might see that very thing in this morning’s gospel reading from John, that well-known story about Thomas.  He’s even acquired a nickname – “doubting Thomas.”  Thomas had not yet had the experience of the other disciples.  He had not yet encountered the risen Jesus, and he was not going to take the word of others.  Then Jesus appears again, and among the words he speaks to Thomas are these – “Do not doubt, but believe.”

            Some Christians argue that a kind of blind faith is the essence of faith.  “God said it.  I believe it.  That settles it.”  It was a phrase I encountered in a Bible promises book some years ago.  Questions were not encouraged.  Doubt was dissed.  One was not to ask if there might be a difference between the word of God and the words which have come to us in the Bible, or how we might discern the voice of the Spirit through the text.

            Is this what faith is all about?  I don’t think so.  Thomas had been asking questions, reserving judgment, and he was still welcomed by the disciples.  It was a week after he began asking questions that Jesus appeared to him.  He was not ostracized by the disciples during that time.  It seems to me if we exclude questions, we are excluding people who might just want to know a little more about this Jesus, this Christian faith of ours.  I would go even further.  Sometimes it takes a measure of faith to ask questions, to raise doubts.  The twentieth century theologian Paul Tillich wrote in his book Dynamics of Faith: Faith includes courage.  Therefore it can include the doubt about itself….  Serious doubt is a confirmation of faith (20,22).

            The essence of faith in Jesus Christ, of Christian faith in God is not a blind, unthinking, uncritical faith.  Yet, I would also say that faith in Jesus Christ, Christian faith in God is, at the same time, a blind faith of another sort.  There are two parts to this important blindness of faith.

            The first important blindness of Christian faith is well-expressed in these words of Helen Keller.  The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched.  They must be felt with the heart.  The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched.  They must be felt with the heart.

            Jesus says to Thomas, “Have you believed because you have seen me?  Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have come to believe.”  The writer of I Peter writes, “Although you have not seen him [Jesus Christ], you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and rejoice with an indescribable and glorious joy.”

            The heart of Christian faith is a trust that things unseen are among the most important in the world.  We trust that there is a God, a power in the world whose nature is love, and therefore to act lovingly is to work with the very grain of the universe.  We trust that the way of life is the way of joy, genuineness, gentleness, generosity and justice.  Now sometimes we see goodness being rewarded, or we see goodness being its own reward, but not always.  Still we trust that the best and most beautiful things in the world are unseen, or perhaps not easily seen.  We live differently because of that.  We come here regularly to attune ourselves to the unseen, to listen more carefully for the whisper of God’s Spirit.  We pay attention to our inner life.  We live trusting that in the end what will matter most about our lives are the other lives we touched in ways that are not always visible, that are hard to describe.  So there is this kind of blindness to genuine faith.

            Another dimension to the essential blindness of our faith is well-expressed in these words of Albert Schweitzer.  No ray of sunshine is ever lost but the green which it awakens into existence needs time to sprout, and it is not always granted for the sower to see the harvest.  All work that is worth anything is done in faith.  I think I have mentioned that I have for a long time collected quotes.  My first notebook with quotes written in it is from high school.  It had once been my “Mass Media” class notebook from my senior year.  The Schweitzer quote is in that notebook.  But I particularly remember the quote because I used to sometimes also write quotes on school folders, including in college, and one of my psychology professors noticed this quote one time and asked me about it.  He said that he did not work that way.  He really needed to see results.

            I like to see results, too, but sometimes we don’t get that opportunity, particularly when we are talking about the good we may do for others.  We in the church are here for each other.  One of the things Jesus does is bring people together.  Bishop John Shelby Spong writes, “the business of the church is to love people into life” (Resurrection, 288).  That’s an audacious description of what we are about here.  And sometimes we will point to places where we can celebrate where we have done just that, and many times we simply have to keep loving and hope that we are indeed loving people into life.  We may never know, but we trust.

            We trust that, in the words of the philosopher Alfred North Whitehead, God is one who acts  with “a tender care that nothing be lost” (Process and Reality, 525 old edition).  Whether we see the results of our kindness, our loving, our caring, we continue being kind, loving and caring, trusting that in God none of this is lost.

            We trust that some of the best and most beautiful things in the world are unseen and yet what matter most.  We trust that the good we do is never lost.  In these ways, there is, indeed, a certain blindness to our Christian faith.  It is not a blindness that refuses to ask questions, to entertain doubts, to look at the world.  Rather our faith trusts that some things that are terribly important cannot be seen, or at least not be seen easily.  So we live differently.  If loving is the answer, then who’s the giving for?  Do you believe in something that you’ve never seen before?   - to quote lyrics from one song.

            Or to put it in the words of Blind Faith:

Blind Faith, “Presence of the Lord”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IfIcxfArHj4       

Didn't I Blow Your Mind This Time

Sermon preached Easter Sunday, April 20, 2014

Texts: Colossians 3:1-4; John 20:1-18

            The Delfonics, “Didn’t (I Blow Your Mind This Time) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7R60QoJKokQ

            It’s Easter and this may be a little unexpected, but didn’t I blow your mind this time?  Besides what music would God like better than soul music?!  Before I get in real trouble, let me say that I find soul in all kinds of music.

            This Lent we explored shades of God, dimensions of God in order to better understand how God might be at work in our lives and in order to better understand the kind of people we should be.  To understand God better is to understand the direction for our lives in relationship to God.  If we are made, as we are, in the image of God, let us become the image both of ourselves and of God. (St. Maximus the Confessor, The Philokalia, II, 171).

            This Easter Sunday morning I want to offer one more image of God, and of how God might work in our lives.  God is a mind blower.  “Didn’t I blow your mind this time,” could be the voice of God.  Blowing your mind - something is mind-blowing if it excites or surprises or makes an extremely strong impression.  God is a God who blows our minds.

            And God is never more mind-blowing than at Easter.  Early on the first day of the week, while it was still dark, Mary Magdalene came to the tomb, and she saw that the stone had been removed from the tomb.  This mind-blowing morning is just beginning.  She is startled, and runs to get Peter and another disciple, who return with Mary to the tomb.  Sure enough, empty.  The two men leave – “for as yet they did not understand.”  Mary remains, weeping.  She peers into the tomb, and this time it is not empty.  She sees two angels.  Mind blowing, and they speak to her.  “Why are you weeping?”  She turns and there is a figure standing there.  She thinks it is the gardener.  But then she hears the voice, “Mary.”  Mind blowing.  She responds, “Teacher.”  God is never more mind-blowing than at Easter.

            But here is good news.  God has not stopped being mind-blowing.  If we think of Easter, if we think of resurrection, only in the past tense, we leave this story in a cave with a heavy stone rolled in front.  God’s Spirit still can blow our minds.  God seeks to open up our lives to God, to others, to the world, to ourselves.

            One of the qualities that should characterize us as God’s Spirit people, as God’s Jesus people, as God’s Easter people is the quality of openness – “wider horizons, a larger heart, minds set free, room to move around” to quote Patrick Henry ( The Ironic Christian’s Companion, 8).  God’s Easter people are open to the world in all its wonder, splendor, beauty, amazingness, destructiveness, hurt, pain, and sorrow. 

In her book Help, Thanks, Wow which some of us read this Lent, the writer Anne Lamott writes: The third great prayer, Wow, is often offered with a gasp, a sharp intake of breath, when we can’t think of another way to capture the sight of shocking beauty or destruction….  “Wow” means we are not dulled to wonder.  We click into being fully present when we’re stunned into that gasp, by the sight of a birth, or images of the World Trade Center towers falling, or the experience of being in a fjord, at dawn, for the first time. (71)

God is a mind-blowing God, never more so than at Easter, and an appropriate response is the openness of Wow.  It is the large-hearted openness Elizabeth Lesser writes about.  The opposite of happiness is a closed heart.  Happiness is a heart so soft and so expansive that it can hold all of the emotions in a cradle of openness….  An open heart feels everything – including anger, grief, and pain – and absorbs it into a bigger and wiser experience of reality….  I have come to believe that the opposite of happiness is a fearful, closed heart.  Happiness is ours when we go through our anger, fear, and pain, all the way to our sadness, and then slowly let sadness develop into tenderness. (The New American Spirituality, 180)

God is a mind-blowing, heart-opening, soul-stretching God, never more so than at Easter, and an appropriate response is openness.  Embrace your life in all its mystery, wonder, splendor, beauty, amazingness, destructiveness, hurt, pain, and sorrow.  Embrace the world in all its wonder, splendor, beauty, amazingness, destructiveness, hurt, pain, and sorrow.  In the words of the poet Wendell Berry, “practice resurrection” (‘Manifesto: Mad Farmer Liberation Front”)

Let’s be honest.  This openness and embracing, this way of practicing resurrection is not easy.  Oh we like the beauty, wonder and splendor parts of the world, but it is difficult to be open to the other stuff.  How open do we want to be to a world where the average age of a young woman when she is first trafficked for sex is 13 -14?  How open do we want to be to a world where some 73 year-old man gets so blinded by the hate he has been nurturing for so long he goes on a shooting spree against Jews, and kills three people, none of whom are even Jewish – he is that blinded by hate.  In another of her books, Anne Lamott writes, “Darkness is our context, and Easter’s context: without it you probably couldn’t see the light” (Plan B, 275).  By being open to this world, by embracing this world, I don’t mean accepting the ugliness and brutality, I mean embracing it enough to ask hard questions about the lives of teenage girls who end up trafficked and then trying to do something about what we learn.  By being open to this world, by embracing this world, I don’t mean accepting the hatred and destructiveness, I mean using the freedom and power God gives us to resist evil, injustice and oppression in whatever forms they present themselves, to use language from our baptism liturgy.  Being open and embracing this world means engaging it for positive change, and it means being willing to accompany the hurting when change isn’t possible.

Why would someone want to live this way?  Why be open?  Why embrace our lives and the world?  In a word, “trust.”  If an appropriate response to the mind-blowing God of Easter is to let the winds of God’s Spirit blow open our lives, enlarge our hearts, expand our minds, stretch our souls, such openness is based in trust, another appropriate response to the God of the risen Jesus.  Trust.  Trust that the God who raised Jesus, whose love was not nailed permanently to a cross or sealed forever in a tomb, trust that this God still can blow our minds.  Trust that this God still acts in the world.  Trust your life with this God who, in the beautiful words of the philosopher Alfred North Whitehead, “dwells upon the tender elements in the world, which slowly and in quietness operate by love” (Process and Reality, older edition, 520).  Trust that “your life is hidden with Christ in God” (Colossians 3:3).  Trust that openness and love are the way of true life.

What might this life of openness and trust in this God who continues operate in the world in mind-blowing ways look like?  Here are some stories.

This past week I attended a workshop and lecture presented by Rachel Lloyd.  Rachel Lloyd is from England and ended up in the commercial sex industry in Germany.  She escaped “the life” as she calls it and is now working to help sexually-exploited children.  In her memoir, Lloyd writes about leaving the life.  The thought that may I have a greater purpose leads me to a small nondenominational American church the following Sunday, and that sets me on a path that will result in my walking away from the life two months later and never going back.  This inexplicable belief in God’s love for me at a critical moment sustains me over the next few months, and ultimately over the next decade. (171)  Of her church she writes that is was a place “where I’ve experienced the kind of peace and overwhelming love that I’ve never felt anywhere else and where I’ve begun to believe that perhaps God really does love me” (225).  Openness to life, to God, to self, trusting the mind-blowing God of Easter gives us strength to make difficult changes.  Openness to all of life as a church puts us in places where we can offer God’s love to those who need it in the midst of their deepest pains and struggles.  We trust that God can use us to touch the world with a love that works tenderly, slowly, often quietly, sometimes dramatically.

In Help, Thanks, Wow Anne Lamott writes “that life is usually Chutes and Ladders, with no guaranteed gains” (97).  That may not strike us as a very hopeful vision.  Where is the mind-blowing God of Easter?  Yet Lamott also writes: I pray not to be such a whiny, self-obsessed baby, and give thanks that I am not quite as bad as I used to be (talk about miracles).  Then something comes up, and I overreact and blame and sulk, and it feels like I haven’t made any progress at all.  But it turns out I’m less of a brat that before, and I hit the reset button much sooner, shake if off and get my sense of humor back.  That we and those we love have lightened up over the years is one of the most astonishing sights we will ever witness. (95-96).  I guess it is not all just Chutes and Ladders.  Openness and trust in the mind-blowing, heart enlarging, soul stretching God offers some hope of progress, God working with the tender elements of the world which slowly and in quietness operate by love.  Sometimes we see the gardener before we finally hear the voice of Jesus, but we can learn to hear the voice of Jesus more often.

Kent Nerburn, a writer and artist from Bemidji tells a story of time spent in Germany.  It was a lonely time.  One day he decides to take the train to a nearby town to see an American movie, to hear his own language.  Arriving several hours before the movie, he sits on a street bench and watches as the town begins to close down for the evening.  Still waiting for his movie, he notices a man walking toward him.  He was obviously drunk.  And he was sobbing. (Lord, Make Me An Instrument, 40)  The man approaches Nerburn, and they greet one another as best they can – The German’s English adequate, but not well-used, and Nerburn’s German barely passable.  The man is grief-stricken, sobbing and through it all manages to tell his story.  He was a judge, well respected in the community.  That morning, a young girl had run in front of his car as he was driving to work.  There had been no time to stop.  He had struck her, killing her instantly.  He had been wandering the streets, drinking, ever since. (41)  The man kept reliving the moment and thinking about his life.  “I am a judge, how could I have done this?  I keep seeing her in front of me, why could I not stop?  Nerburn: I tried to speak some words that would matter, but he stopped me.  “Don’t talk,” he said.  “I don’t need words.  I just need to be near somebody. (42) Nerburn stayed with the man long into the night, and reflected later on his experience.  If we are able to stay with someone at their time of darkness and doubt and simply bear witness, we are performing a holy act, and the wounded heart will know.  By the mute testimony of our presence, we are saying, “You are a child of God, and you matter.”  And that is sometimes enough to make a wounded heart turn back, if only for a moment, and feel the presence of the light. (43-44)  The mind-blowing, heart-enlarging, soul-stretching God, the God of Easter, invites us to be open to people who are in pain, anguish, angst and to trust that our presence in love makes a difference.  When we are present in love, somehow God is present in love.  We hope someone was present to the family of the young girl as well.

Toward the end of Friday evening’s worship service, these words were spoken: On a silent Saturday we wonder, would the words ever be heard again – “I give you a new commandment, that you love one another.  Just as I have loved you, you also should love one another.  By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.”  Or would the words remain sealed away forever?

Today we know.  Today we celebrate.  The God of Jesus Christ is not silent or entombed but still acts in mind-blowing, heart-enlarging, soul-stretching ways.  Practice resurrection.  Embrace the world.  Embrace your life.  Open up, trusting that God might just blow your mind this time, and again and again and again.  Amen.

Grim, Bleak Stuff (Good Friday sermon)

Good Friday, April 18, 2014

            Some of us, this Lent, read Anne Lamott’s book Help, Thanks, Wow.  It is a book focused on prayer, but it is not her first book on faith.  Lamott did not grow up in a family of faith.  My parents worshipped at the church of The New York Times, and we bowed down before our antique hi-fi cabinet, which held the Ark of the Covenant – Miles Davis and Thelonious Monk albums.  So, to recap, my parents, who were too hip and intellectual to pray, worshipped mostly mentally ill junkies (Help, Thanks, Wow, 17)  Lamott came to faith as an adult, came to faith out of a number of difficult experiences, and has discovered that faith does not necessarily make all the difficulties go away.

            In one of her earlier books, reflecting on her life and faith, Plan B, Lamott offers some thoughts about Good Friday.  It’s a sad day, of loss and cruelty; and all you have to go on is faith that the light shines in the darkness, and nothing, not death, not disease, not even the government, can overcome it (274).  She then goes on to offer some of her most profound words: Hope is not about proving anything.  It’s about choosing to believe this one thing, that love is bigger than any grim, bleak [stuff] {original: shit} anyone can throw at us. (275)  If you know Anne Lamott, you may know that I had to edit her writing a little here, substituting a five-letter “s” word – “stuff,” for the four-letter “s” word in her book.  Hope is choosing to believe this one thing, that love is bigger than any grim, bleak stuff anyone can throw at us.

            Grim, bleak, stuff.  The story of Good Friday is a grim, bleak story.  It is a story of betrayal.  It is a story of the misuse of power – both political and religious.  It is a story of abandonment.  It is a story of dehumanization.  It is a story about fear, and the use of fear.  It is a story about pain and death.

            Difficult as it is, we need to look this grim, bleak stuff right in the eye.  We need to take this grim, bleak stuff seriously.  It is part of our world.  Anne Lamott: “Darkness is our context” (Plan B, 275).  Darkness is our context.  In this morning’s newspaper we read about the disturbing rise in heroin usage in our area.  It is a problem plaguing the entire country.  Earlier this week, in Kansas City, a 73 year-old man, who seemed to have dedicated much of his time and energy to hating, shot and killed three people.  The places of the killings were Jewish, but none of the victims was.  On April 7, in Homs, Syria a Dutch priest, Father Frans van der Lught was executed, shot twice in the head by an unknown assailant.  Father Frans had been in Syria since 1966 and refused to leave even as violence escalated.  He was committed to helping the poor, regardless of their religious affiliation.

            Earlier this week, I spent a day learning more about human trafficking, sex trafficking to be more specific.  I had the privilege of learning from Rachel Lloyd, a woman who experienced the commercial sex trade first-hand and went on to write about it and to try and do something about it.  In her memoir, Girls Like Us, she discusses how she was helped leave “the life” by a church.  She writes that she never “fully shared” her past, though the church folks knew she had been through some stuff (275).  Monday evening, Lloyd shared that she did try once to share a bit more with a woman who she considered her closest friend in the church, but that this friend backed off, signaling that she really could not hear Rachel Lloyd’s whole story.

            We in the church need to hear, to see, to look the grim, bleak stuff in the eye.  If we are going to reach out into the world with the healing love of Jesus, we need to have some idea of the depth of the healing needed.

            Looking the grim, bleak stuff right in the eye does not just mean looking out there – at the cruelty and destructiveness and pain in the world.  It also means looking into our own hearts and souls.  There can be some grim, bleak stuff inside of us, too.  Sometimes our lives get entangled with grim, bleak stuff in the world.  The first question we ask parents of children being baptized, or those affirming their faith is, “Do you renounce the spiritual forces of wickedness, reject the evil powers of this world, and repent of your sin?”  That’s a pretty heavy question, but it tries to get us to see that sometimes we can get entangled in grim, bleak stuff – spiritual forces of wickedness.  We can become complicit with grim, bleak stuff – evil powers of this world.  Ordinary Germans got caught up in the Holocaust.  Ordinary Russians got caught up in the police state and gulag system of the Soviets.  Ordinary Chinese got caught up in Mao’s Cultural Revolution.  Ordinary Americans got caught up in the slave system.

            Grim, bleak stuff inside.  We are invited to change – to confession and repentance.  Some of our grim, bleak stuff is not our complicity, or our wrongdoing, but may also be our own buried hurts and pains.  We need to look at that too – our wounds, our hurts, our disappointments, our pain.  We need to see how deep the need for healing is in our own lives.

            When we can confront the grim, bleak stuff, when we can take it seriously and look it in the eye, then we can testify to the power of love and the strength of hope that we find in the God of Jesus Christ.

            In his book, Loving Jesus, Mark Allan Powell writes about sharing the faith.  Have you ever heard the testimony of someone who has no doubt… who is certain that he or she has found the kingdom: Before I knew Jesus, my life was a mess.  I was on drugs.  Or maybe I drank too much.  I was unfaithful to my spouse.  I couldn’t keep my kids in line.  I was mean to my dog.  I lost my job.  I was unhappy and bitter.  I was a real mess.  But then I found Jesus and he turned me into the wonderful person that I am today.  And I’m here to tell you the good news: if you accept Christ into your life, you can be just as together as I am.  Your life can be as good as mine.  These people do not make good evangelists. (Loving Jesus, 126)

            Of course, I believe Jesus can and does make life better.  I rejoice with those for whom the power of love in Jesus helped them overcome destructive behaviors, or heal damaged relationships, or healed deep wounds. There may be those whose faith leads to a problem free life.  For most of us, though, the grim, bleak stuff does not simply disappear.  We lose our way a bit.  We continue to know hurt and disappointment.  People we love get sick.  People we love die.  On Good Friday, I take seriously the grim, bleak stuff and the reality that it does not simply disappear from most lives.  I also take seriously that hope is choosing to believe this one thing, that love is bigger than any grim, bleak stuff anyone can throw at us.  The grim, bleak stuff can keep coming.  It may not magically disappear from our lives inside or out.  But there is something stronger, bigger.

            Today is a day of grim, bleak stuff.  It is a day for confession.  It is a day for honesty.  It is a day for authenticity.  It is also a day to recognize the strength of hope and the power of love.  It is day to remember that God, in Jesus, met the grim, bleak stuff with eyes wide open, and that love prevailed.  Amen.

Happy Joyful

Sermon preached April 13, 2014

Texts: Matthew 21:1-11; Matthew 27:32-54

            Parade music: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pOCxegQupMU&feature=kp#aid=P9IYMpBFHto

Everybody loves a parade, and by the way the recording I am playing the morning is from 1890.

            Everybody loves a parade, and everybody loves to be happy.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=53ZWIIn67ek&feature=kp  “Happy” The Rolling Stones.  So we don’t hear The Rolling Stones in church much, but maybe we should.  They are an Easter band after all – rolling stones!

            God delights in our happiness.  The Psalmist writes, “God delights in God’s people” (149:4).  God delights in our happiness.

            Why, then, we might ask, aren’t our circumstances always happy?  That they aren’t is obvious from our second Scripture reading for this morning.  Why don’t happy things always happen?  Part of the answer is found simply in the human condition.  We are bodily creatures with a life span and our bodies and our life span are frustrating.  We have to deal with that.  We also need to remember that God is not the only actor there is.   God does not possess all the power there is.  Circumstances created by others can create deep unhappiness for us.  An overbearing boss, a dysfunctional family, an uncaring friend – the list could go on and on of those who can create unhappy circumstances in our lives.  Our own actions can undermine our happiness.  Sometimes what we think will make us happy does not.  Sometime we pursue some short-term thrill that leaves us with difficult long-term consequences.

            Life is not always happy.  That does not change that God delights in our happiness.  God, too, loves a parade.

            Even more, though, God fosters joy.  At the heart of joy is the heart of God.  In the Gospel of John, Jesus sums up pretty much everything by saying, “These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full.”  He said it at the supper that he knew was the last one he’d have a mouth to eat.  Happiness turns up more or less where you’d expect it to – a good marriage, a rewarding job, a pleasant vacation.  Joy, on the other hand, is as notoriously unpredictable as the one who bequeaths it.  (Frederick Buechner, Wishful Thinking, 57-58)

            There does seem to be a meaningful distinction between happiness and joy.  Circumstances are not always happy, yet they never completely preclude at least a modicum of joy.  Since I first read them I have appreciated the wise words of Elizabeth Lesser.  A happy heart is one that is larger at all times than any on emotion.  An open heart feels everything – including anger, grief, and pain – and absorbs it into a bigger and wiser experience of reality.  Joseph Campbell calls happiness the “joyful participation in the sorrows of the world.”  (The New American Spirituality, 180)  I also have a deep fondness for Wendell Berry’s phrase, “Be joyful/though you have considered all the facts” (‘Manifesto: The Mad Farmer Liberation Front”).

            Let’s admit it.  This is a weird Sunday in the church and not just because I have played both John Phillips Sousa and the Marine Corps Band and The Rolling Stones.  This is a weird Sunday in the church because we read both the Palm Sunday parade text, and some of the story of Jesus’s death.  It is kind of strange, yet the faith we share, the faith that encompasses both these stories has at its heart a God whose heart is a heart of joy.

            When Jesus was in danger, his disciples were alarmed; but otherwise it was impossible to be sad in Jesus’ company.  And when he told his disciples that he wanted his joy to be in them, “that your joy may be complete,” to a remarkable degree that objective was realized. (Huston Smith, The Soul of Christianity, 78)  With Jesus, there is joy.  How about the startling words of Greek Orthodox Father Alexander Schmemann: I think God will forgive everything except lack of joy; when we forget that God created the world and saved it.  Joy is not one of the ‘components’ of Christianity, it’s the tonality of Christianity that penetrates everything. (Journals)  Joy is the very tonality of Christianity!  It was impossible to be sad in Jesus’ company.  Be joyful though you have considered all the facts.

            What are the roots of our joy, a joy possible in the midst of even unhappy circumstances?  Our joy is rooted is the wild, ubiquitous, persistent love of God.  Look at this poem by Raymond Carver (Late Fragment), a poem cited by Anne Lamott in the book some of us have read – Help, Thanks, Wow (99).

And did you get what

you wanted from this life, even so?

I did.

And what did you want?

To call myself beloved, to feel myself

beloved on the earth.

            Because of God’s wild, persistent, ubiquitous love, these words fit us.  You can call yourself beloved.  You can feel yourself beloved on the earth.  In that is joy.

            And in that love of God for us our lives matter.  That, too, is a root of joy.  Our lives matter.  Our lives make a difference.  To use a quote from last week: That you are here – that life exists and identity,/That the powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse. (Walt Whitman, Leaves of Grass).  You matter.  You make a difference.  You contribute a verse to the powerful play of life.  You contribute a verse to the powerful play of God’s life.  In that is joy.

            There are few more joyous occasions than weddings.  One favorite poem I use occasionally at weddings provides a nice image of joy.

“Prayer for a Marriage”   Steve Scafidi

When we are old one night and the moon

arcs over the house like an antique

China saucer and the teacup sun

follows somewhere far behind

I hope the stars deepen to a shine

so bright you could read by it

if you liked and the sadnesses

we will have known go away

for awhile – in this hour or two

before sleep – and that we kiss

standing in the kitchen not fighting

gravity so much as embodying

its sweet force, and I hope we kiss

like we do today knowing so much

good is said in this primitive tongue

from the wild first surprising ones

to the lower dizzy ten thousand

infinitely slower ones – and I hope

while we stand there in the kitchen

making tea and kissing, the whistle

of the teapot wakes the neighbors.

            There are sadnesses in life we will know, but joy is the kiss while the tea kettle whistles.  And joy is the very tonality of Christianity.  It was impossible to be sad in Jesus’ company.  Be joyful though you have considered all the facts.

            God is a God of joy.  It is a predominant shade of God.  God is a God of joy, and God loves a parade.  God is particularly delighted when joy and happiness combine, like here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y6Sxv-sUYtM#aid=P79RyF_fzZA

Pharrell Williams, “Happy”  Know God, know joy, even when things are hard.

Amen.

Life and Life Only

Sermon preached April 6, 2014

Texts: Ezekiel 37:1-14; John 11:1-44

            I like poetry.  If any of you were hoping that I would be that pastor who would be inviting you to my next mixed martial arts fight (http://abcnews.go.com/GMA/video/church-fight-club-pits-pastor-pastor-23188184), I am sorry to disappoint you.  I was delighted to read this line in Anne Lamott’s book Help, Thanks, Wow: Poetry is the official palace language of Wow (79).

            I might be no surprise to you then, that one of my favorite movies is Dead Poets Society (1989), where Robin Williams plays an English teacher at a boys prep school.  The film is where I recall my attention first being drawn to Henry David Thoreau’s words from Walden: I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.  I did not wish to live what was not life….  I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life (172).  In the film the lines of Walt Whitman are cited (as on your insert).  The question, O me! So sad recurring – What good amid these, O me, O life?/Answer/That you are here – the life exists and identity,/that the powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse.

            Life.  Life and life only.  Full, rich abundant life, better life than we ever dreamed of.  Among the shades of God as we know God in Jesus Christ is that God is life giving.  In the words of theologian Gustavo Gutierrez, God liberates because God is the God of life (The God of Life, 3)

            The two Scripture texts for today are well-known to those of us who have been around the Bible for a while, and they are well-known stories about the God of Jesus Christ as life-giving.  Lazarus, brother of Martha and Mary, dies.  He is dead, stinking dead – “already there is a stench.”  Martha trusts that her brother “will rise again in the resurrection on the last day,” but Jesus assures Martha, “I am the resurrection and the life.”  The stone is rolled from the grave.  The stench clears and Lazarus is unbound.

            God gives a vision to Ezekiel.  He brought me out by the spirit of the Lord and set me down in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones….  He said to me, ‘Mortal, can these bones live?”…  Thus says the Lord God to these bones: I will cause breath to enter you, and you shall live….  The breath came into them, and they lived.

            There is life, and there is life.  Thoreau did not want to come to the end of his life and wonder if he had lived.  In Help, Thanks, Wow, Anne Lamott writes, “when nothing new can get in, that’s death.”  Somehow, even when we are alive, our lives can become bound up and stink.  Even in the midst of life, we can become like dry bones.  Where is the Life we have lost in living? the poet T. S. Eliot asks (“The Rock” chorus 1).  The theologian Dorothee Soelle writes, “It is possible to miss the whole of life, to throw it away, to treat it as a disposable object” (Choosing Life, 8).

            We can live life so that life is narrow, fearful, cynical.  That kind of life is like being bound in stinky grave cloths.  That kind of life is like dry bones strewn across a valley.

            God desires for us something else.  The theologian Paul Tillich, in words not on your insert, argues that life in the Spirit is marked by “increasing awareness… increasing freedom… increasing relatedness… increasing transcendence” (Systematic Theology, III, 231).  God desires for us life that is truly life, life where we are more aware of ourselves and the world, life where we are freer, life where we are more deeply related to others, and life where we grow in relationship to God.

            God, the life-giving Spirit, the God of Jesus Christ who is the resurrection and the life even now, not just at some future time, God desires for us life that is truly life – wider horizons, a larger heart, minds set free, room to move around.  Patrick Henry goes on to write, Curiosity, imagination, exploration, adventure are not preliminary to Christian identity, a kind of booster rocket to be jettisoned when spiritual orbit is achieved.  They are part of the payload. (The Ironic Christian’s Companion, 8-9)

            God, the life-giving Spirit, the God of Jesus Christ who is the resurrection and the life even now, not just at some future time, God desires for us life that has some Wow in it.  Anne Lamott: “Wow” is about having one’s mind blown by the mesmerizing or the miraculous: the veins in a leaf, birdsong, volcanoes….  Gorgeous, amazing things come into our lives when we are paying attention….  Astonishing material and revelation appear in our lives all the time.  Let it be.  Unto us, so much is given.  We just have to be open for business. (Help, Thanks, Wow, 71, 85)

            This life that God desires for us is not something that we hoard, but something that is also shared.  Life in God’s Spirit is a life of increasing relatedness.  Lazarus comes to life again in the midst of relationship with Mary, Martha, and Jesus.  Together they unbind him.

            This life that God desires for us is something God desires for the whole world.  To come more alive in God’s Spirit is also to realize that there is a lot in the world that does not promote fullness of life, and God calls us to do what we can to clear the way for life.  Dorothee Soelle: Choosing life is the very capacity for not putting up with the matter-of-course destruction of life surrounding us, and the matter-of-course cynicism that is our constant companion (Choosing Life, 7).  Jurgen Moltmann: Life in God’s Spirit is life against death….  To say ‘yes’ to life means saying ‘no’ to war and its devastations.  To say ‘yes’ to life means saying ‘no’ to poverty and its humiliations.  There is no genuine affirmation of life in this world without the struggle against life’s negations. (The Spirit of Life, 97-98)

            Our job as a church , as a Jesus community, is to connect with the God of life.  We are here to unbind one another, to help each other move from dry bones to the dance of life.  Connecting with the God of life, we are different.  Connecting with the God of life, we seek to make the world different.

            Let me leave you with these images of living life in the dance of God the life-giver (Denise Levertov, “The Avowal”).

As swimmers dare

to lie face to the sky

and water bears them,

as hawks rest upon air

and air sustains them,

so would I learn to attain

freefall, and float

into Creator Spirit’s deep embrace,

knowing no effort earns

that all-surrounding grace.

Amen.